Pieces of You (Poem)

After you left 
I used your coffee mug every day for a week straight
I thought about how washing it made me think you would come back
After you left
My body climbed into bed on your side 
I wondered why it was so cold
After you left
I found a birthday letter you gave me, you sprayed your cologne on it
I slept with it clinging it to my chest 
After you left 
I wore the shirt you gave me
I think I wanted it to be my skin, so I never had to live a day without you
After you left 
I used your freaking toothbrush 
Just so I could remember a fraction of your taste
After you left
I went to the gas station and stocked up on Berry Lemonade Sunkist 
Just because I wanted to be reminded of you. 
I hate Berry Lemonade Sunkist 
After you left 
I looked through our high school yearbook 
Just so I could see your face and your name
I already deleted the pictures, I am sorry
After you left 
I started dotting my “i”s with hearts 
Just so I could imagine it was you writing with love toward me
After you left 
I banned the song “Yellow” by Coldplay in my car
If someone else turned it on, rage would bubble up my throat and I’d want to crash the car
After you left 
I played it for 7 hours straight 
Just sitting in my car… the cops had to send me home
After you left 
I was a shattered mirror
I didn’t know if I could be put back together after falling apart like that