Anakin Skywalker (Poem)

I would have traded my soul for your heartbeat 
And when the world didn’t accept my bargaining chip
I gave it, I set it aflame 
I loved you like Icarus loved the sun
So maybe that is why I sit here and burn
It starts as a flicker in my chest
A lighter that has too much butane 
When the flame is lit
It travels through the roadways of my heart
It ends in my hair 
Maybe that’s why I cut it all off when you left 
I became a shell of a man 
Looking for you in every constellation star 
And every passing car 
The spark that you set 
Smothered out
The embers of our love lay lifeless around my body
Is this how I become a memory that fades away like smoke? 
Is this how I lose myself completely? 
I get lost when I can’t find you on a map
I scream at house fires
I try to find you in them
My bones wrapped in regret
My rage buried deep in my chest 
With your dying breath, you held onto one of my cinders
An echo of “I know there is still good in him” 
A whisper of hope